I don't know why I am here.blogging where I should be studying for exams..

yeah right, study..screw exams

Sometimes I really wish I wouldn't have let go some things..and I'm most likely to benefit from it now..it is not anything to be sad about or anything, nevertheless I felt left out..as though I don't stand a chance to understand..and I wouldn't stand a chance to do so..unless I'm really lucky that I'm able to brush up, which is the hardest thing for me to do right now..Sometimes I really hope to be able to understand the meanings behind those lines..I've tried but to no avail, I do not see myself able to share the burdens , share the thoughts and feelings..hence I end up feeling helpless..I can't help feeling helpless..why..why must it significantly be a burden to me? I'm still trying hard..I hope one day, it would not be a barrier ..I hope I would be confident enough to destroy the barrier..

All I can understand now are those simple written words that hardly serves the true meaning of the entire desired message put forth. Sometimes I wonder if I'm causing pain or perhaps unhappiness. and even troublesome to a certain extent where I don't think I deserve anything at all..So this conclude that I'm plain selfish....I pray that I'm only thinking too much..

Once again, screw exams..T_T